This is all coming from my inability to finish a post. I had a large chunk of it done and then POOF I lost half of it through user error and now weeks and weeks later I just keep going and starting at it. I know that words that are there but every time I write something different comes out; my brain is a jumble of words and what comes out is inconsequential alphabet soup. I can't continue writing and it make sense. I think I lost my purpose. I love the point of the post and for some reason it is just not
done. There are things that still need said there but the will not line up like they should. I refuse to scrap it. I'll keep working on it and try to organise my soup into the words that want said.