Let them go...and Dream

I want to say that I am being left. left behind while everybody moves away.

But my smart smart smart brain tells me that is dumb. It tells me that we all have to 'grow up'

That is... is terms of moving on and out and basicly continuing with our lives ...I am in fact never going to grow up I'm quite happy with me the way I am right now so why change that because the world says that you are at one time a 'child' and at another and 'adult' ...no

Anywho little rant beside.... 

I feel lonly. Abandoned. I usually do, it is easy for me to slip into that thinking, to assume everybody leaves. Or that they are going to. Maybe part of me is right. 

Yes, everybody DOES leave. Life happens they have to move, go to school, travel, the list is endless and that IS life. 

Life is motion. It is moving and leaving and learning and getting out there and seeing what you always dreamed was there.

So why does my mind tell me that is bad.

That it is pain.

That it is loss.

That it is hurt.

Why does it hurt so much to know that even though you love them they have to live. To ask them to do anything else is selfish and cruel.

Why do I want to tie down those that I love? Keep them here and cut them off from what they need to do.

"If you love them it let it go and if your lucky they will come back to you"

That annoying little saying is not about what I always thought- That if you love someone they will leave and then if they love you back they will come to you. I always thought so dark about it, that it was a horrible saying.

But it is not. It is good, it is hope. Hope. If you love them let them live their lives where they need to be and go. Let them see and experience and dream of new things to explore. 
And then if your lucky they can come back, even better then they were, having now see and done more then they ever hoped, and then you can be even happier. You will both have had your dreams and dreamt up new ones.

If you are lucky you will both come back together, even better then before. 

You will have given them their dreams, and then you can cherish them when they return.

And if they don't you can smile knowing that even just a small part of you has helped them to find their dreams, their life.

You can smile with yourself knowing you were not a selfish person. 

Knowing that they are happy.

And better for it.