Thursday, July 28, 2011

Playing in my mind

Don't test the ones you love
It'll only tear us down
If you want to feel alive
Then learn to love your ground


Darkness is a harsh term don't you think?
And yet it dominates the things I see


Close my eyes for a while
Force from the world a patient smile

Monday, July 25, 2011

CW? I don't know... 'Wash your eyes out'

Our darkness came for me again tonight
And I handing my thoughts over
Willingly           

It was lies all of it
That I ever saw your light
God how I wish it had been real
I wish I had a bit of
Your Light
To show me it was real, you weren’t pretending

Its gone now,
It never Was

Does that make a lie?
Telling what you suppose
What you think you should

Words that once said can not be taken back, or changed
Or said again
Now left with a question
I know it is true for me
But for you
What can I say of your I

What lovly inky shade
To hide my burning
To wash my eyes out

It broke me,
This darkness holding me down
Just when I had found a hand to help pull me out
My love
My lie

I wouldn’t trade you for anything
If only you could say the same 

Saturday, July 23, 2011

A child said, What is the grass? -Whitman


A child said, What is the grass? fetching it to me with full
 hands;
How could I answer the child?. . . .I do not know what it
 is any more than he.

I guess it must be the flag of my disposition, out of hopeful
 green stuff woven.

Or I guess it is the handkerchief of the Lord,
A scented gift and remembrancer designedly dropped,
Bearing the owner's name someway in the corners, that we
 may see and remark, and say Whose?

Or I guess the grass is itself a child. . . .the produced babe
 of the vegetation.

Or I guess it is a uniform hieroglyphic,
And it means, Sprouting alike in broad zones and narrow
 zones,
Growing among black folks as among white,
Kanuck, Tuckahoe, Congressman, Cuff, I give them the 
same, I receive them the same.

And now it seems to me the beautiful uncut hair of graves.

Tenderly will I use you curling grass,
It may be you transpire from the breasts of young men,
It may be if I had known them I would have loved them;
It may be you are from old people and from women, and
 from offspring taken soon out of their mother's laps,
And here you are the mother's laps.

This grass is very dark to be from the white heads of old
 mothers,
Darker than the colorless beards of old men,
Dark to come from under the faint red roofs of mouths.

O I perceive after all so many uttering tongues!
And I perceive they do not come from the roofs of mouths
 for nothing.

I wish I could translate the hints about the dead young men
 and women,
And the hints about old men and mothers, and the offspring
 taken soon out of their laps.

What do you think has become of the young and old men?
What do you think has become of the women and
 children?

They are alive and well somewhere;
The smallest sprouts show there is really no death,
And if ever there was it led forward life, and does not wait
 at the end to arrest it,
And ceased the moment life appeared.

All goes onward and outward. . . .and nothing collapses,
And to die is different from what any one supposed, and
 luckier.

Friday, July 22, 2011

There are only 10 types of people in the world

01001001 00100000 01101100 01101111 01110110 01100101 00100000 01111001 01101111 01110101

Friday, July 15, 2011

More old stuff from CW A 'me' poem, needs work

I am full of words
questions with no answers
answers who have no questions


      My mind is its own World
      Its own Lost Poem
      my Escape
      my Comfort
      my Insanity


I am full of colors
Paint overflows veins
watercolors in the rain


      My mind is its own World
      Its own Stained Glass
      my Escape
      my Comfort
      my Sanity

I am full of my life
memories weave in and out 
these Scars are my own

      My mind is its own World
      Its Forgotten Story
      my Escape
      my Comfort
      my Reality

I am full of others
all my family of no blood
the desire to help

      My mind is its own World
      my Escape
      my Comfort
      my Heart

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Hey look I wrote this 3 months ago in Creative writing...that is all

You called me Strong
I Am
I am my own Rock
I am what I count on
Strong, invulnerable
I'll hold you up
   I say
I'll keep you safe
   I say
I'm here to help
                         But can I help myself


I am strong
Is it good to be?
Can let them in
And learn to count on them
                Trust
Just a word
Open, vulnerable


You want to save me
         You say
You want to hold me
         You say
You want to help me
                              Will I let you?
 

This is the way the world ends this is the way the world ends

Not with a bang
   with a whimper "

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Not a cloud in the sky

Without an answer, the thunder speaks for the sky. And on the cold wet dirt I cry.

    And it will keep
             Raining
                    raining
                          raining...
Not a cloud in the sky
     
 Let me keep on 
              Raining
                     raining
                           raining...
Too

Friday, July 8, 2011

I Wish had come up with this...

When you love someone, you open yourself up to suffering. That's the sad truth. Maybe they'll break your heart, maybe you'll break their heart and never be able to look at yourself in the same way. Those are the risks. The thought of losing so much control over personal happiness is unbearable. That's the burden. Like wings, they have weight, we feel that weight on our backs, but they are a burden that lifts us. Burdens which allow us to fly. 

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

I lied

Its okay
   Not bad
I didn't mean it
It dosnt hurt
    I'm sorry
                   Don't worry about it